i am done with all the works. i have my essays printed and copied into cds. 4 days/nights (in which one weekend was sacrificed) of works and 5,364 words in total. oh yea, mission accomplished!

as for the production log, i’m actually finished. but haven’t printed nor copied it into cds cos i’m still not sure if i was doing it correctly. i asked my tutor for a sample, but she said she wouldn’t give it before today (friday), i dunno why, but in that case then i’ll have to ask my filmmates to email the sample to me, see if i need to change anything then email my housemates here to print it. aargh so complicated lah, i personally don’t really like this idea.

also…the school has announced the option specialization for next term. turns out i didn’t get into film fiction. so sad laah.

well, it wasn’t really surprising actually, i kinda know that since i’m quite inexperienced in this whole filmmaking thing, my chance is slight. but oh well, i was pretty confident that i’d get in anyway because my pitch was quite epic, in my opinion. haha. so this means that i’d get in script/prose-writing, which is fine and i like it as well, plus, i have more experiences in this writing and scribbling business so chances are, my future would be brighter if i choose to be a writer (that rhyme was unintended, btw). but yeah, there is still a little disappointment of getting rejected.

but on the bright side, there goes the first half of my sophomore year. gosh, it feels good that this term is finally over.

another good news, i’m coming back this christmas! WOO HOO! so what i need to do now is to pack my stuff for jekardah. hell yeah i’m so excited!

all my bags aren’t packed (yet) BUT i’m ready to go….

so, fellow jakarta darlings, imma be seeing you in the next few hours. let’s take back the city!

(btw, i am not sorry for the t.o.p gifs overload ;p)

when you found out that you’ve done your production log the wrong way.

and since you still have time to re-do it again, your brain is telling you to do so. but…looking back at the effort that you’ve put into the previous work…and the thought of having to re-do it again…

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I cried tears of joy when I saw them win!

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namaste!

are you feeling anything yet?

cos i’m feeling EVERYTHING.
happy, ecstatic, sometimes a little bit mellow, eerie, so-so, oh and tired.

lately i’ve been busy. busy with school, busy with work, busy with friends, busy with my own feelings and thoughts o_O. simply busy with life, which is…fine so far i guess.

yes, i am psyched.
yes, but somewhat overwhelmed as well.

despite all this busy-ness, there is still this little voice inside my head that has been saying that i’m not busy enough (say whaaa?), that i’m still lazing around and being unproductive, that i’m wasting my time.

true, i’m doing less activity compared to last year, no internship whatsoever, no more language classes, not looking for a part time job either (just the on-off, super flexible goldsmiths ambassador job.) at the moment, i just don’t feel like committing to a job, i guess. i’m not as workaholic as i was, i think. maybe now it’s a good time to slow down a bit, focusing more on my studies (yeah right, i’m still haven’t gone to the library).

i’m trying to keep being productive, though (come to think of it, why does every little activity has to be productive? why is it that we have to always produce something? isn’t over-production can lead to deflation? - oh how an economic theory is applicable to your own life!). anyway, regarding being productive…i’m still writing (and now editing too) for the leopard as you may know. this blog is still being updated regularly, which is great (fuck yeah consistency!). also, i’ve been doing some more fiction writing, you know, for fun. last but not least, i’m trying to read more, aside from college stuff, viva la knowledge! (right now, i’m sooo into philosophy, especially eastern philosophy, any recommendations?)

still and all, about being productive and stuff, i come across again to the famous phrase, carpe diem. seize the day. why should we seize the day, well according to mr. keating in dead poets society (one of my favourites, THOU SHALL WATCH THIS MOVIE), it’s because “we’re food for worms…because each of us in this room is one day going to stop breathing, turn cold and die”. oh, isn’t that one helluva heavy thinking? but is being productive all the time means that you’re seizing the day?

hmm.
maybe not always.

well, i’d like to counter this idea and thus justify my own laziness with this john lennon quote, “the time you enjoy wasting, was not wasted.” i’m enjoying this slowing down process of life, this so called ‘time wasting’. after all, isn’t everything fast ends faster? plus, just like henry thoreau wrote (and this is also quoted in dead poets society, fyi)
“i went to the woods because i wanted to live deliberately, i wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life, to put to rout all that was not life and not when i had come to die discover that i had not lived”

true true, live long and prosper but live at the moment. enjoy it. take it easy.

and may the force be with you!

wohoo!
so one week down and ten more to come before christmas holiday!

well, it still feels weird to start school again, especially now that i’m in my second year which means more workloads and more pressure to get good grades. well, i’m gonna try my best not to be overwhelmed with all this and to chillax while still getting everything done. also, will try not to overly-procrastinating. *fingers crossed*

anyway, first week has been good so far.

my monday class: communications, experience and psychology is interesting. basically this class is about how everything is subjective, how we are shaped by our experiences and influences. we have to read lots and lots of foucault for this module, and to be honest i’m having mixed feelings about it. on one hand, i’m excited to know about his works but on the other hand, i’m not sure if i’m intellectually prepared for it. hahaha.

my thursday class: intellectual foundations of social theory is….already making me feels smart just by saying its name! HAHAHA. this class is more about the history of social theory, currently we’re studying the enlightenment and its philosophers, which is fascinating! in a few weeks, we’re gonna cover issues like race, ethnicity, etc etc. fun fun fun fun. i really hope this class will be better than the cultural studies class that i took last term. it’s not that cultural studies is boring, but i’ve found social theory more…compelling since it also cover the history part. I AM SUCH A DORK. yes i am.

my friday practice class: TV. well basically it’s a video-making class. we learn how to make documentary and short film from scratch: planning-research-shooting-editing. this is all quite new for me, since i’ve been doing all the writing stuff, so i’m really look forward to do all these things in the upcoming weeks. we have two projects that need to be done by the end of the term: 1 short film/drama and 1 documentary, plus there is a production log that needs to be written. oh, it is gonna be intense. we’re assigned into working in groups and by far i like everyone in my group. let’s hope we kick ass.

in short, academic life is…intellectually challenging!

as for the non-academic life,….well things are going okay with Club ASEAN (i should really change the name into ASEAN Food and Film Club, really. cos we do nothing apart from watching films and eat stuff. hahaha). i showed Arisan! on our Wednesday movie night in the RHB Cinema (a wonderful place to show a film: user-friendly equipment, awesome lighting system, cinema-like seating arrangements, fairly big venue), and although only eight people came (no kidding), i’m quite happy about it. true, we have so many things to improve from promotion to organization and i really have to develop my poor leadership (no shame in admitting it. oh yeah) so that it will no longer be a one-man club.

moving on…

i got promoted to lifestyle and culture editor for The Leopard!!! SO HAPPY. i’ve always been a writer, so i’m really excited for this job (btw, i don’t know exactly what is the role of editor. haha). yay for new experience! oh and i got another article published in The London Student. not my first and i’m the co-writer in this one, but still gets me excited. you can read it here, on page 20.

things are going well in the house. i have such awesome housemates: matt, windy and abbie who keep the house super tidy and clean (VIVA LA OCD! ;p). internet in the house is really fast, me gusta (Y) (why did i write that?) oh, one good thing that i like about living with other people is that it makes me wake up early! LOL. i don’t know why, but seriously, i still sleep at the same time (around 1-2AM) yet now every day i wake up at 7! 9 being the latest. WHOAAA. i like waking up early actually, you have more time to do stuff (like meditation or watching CSI! YAY!!) and it’s just nice to breath in the chilly, morning fresh air.

life’s going great so far in this first week of school. kinda takes my mind off a bit from melancholy thoughts of Jakarta and uhm, so-called bad romance. bad romance, yeah right, pfft ;p as iffffff i have a love life. #NindyRatuGalauNusantara #kesianbetkesian

okay, i think that’s it for now. good night, beautiful people!

back to you, goldsmiths. i am back to you.

so i just had my first class today: communications, psychology and experience. geez, just by saying the title of the module makes me feel smart already. LOL. anyway, going back to school after….let’s say…six months of no school was a bit strange. well, it was great to see some familiar faces again but the thought of doing the readings, essays and other school work is overwhelming, really. for this module, i have to submit a 1000-word essay plan by mid term and then write a 3000-word essay by the end of the term. i suppose, it’s actually not that much of a workload, but still there’s gonna be a lot of stress and pressure. okay, i’m getting ahead of myself. oh well, let the future be the future and chillax nindy.

another thing happening today was that i got a promotion! well, sort of. so as you may or may not know, i have been writing for The Leopard newspaper at Goldsmiths as a columnist. today we had our first meeting to discuss this year’s first issue, and i don’t quite remember how it happened for as long as i remember i was just jokingly volunteering myself to become the feature editor, and voila! Johnny, the co-editor just agreed. whoa.

what a nice first day of school. gratitude _/\_

it’s funny how things can change in a matter of days. well, yeah things can change in a second too, but I’m not gonna talk about those life-changing seconds now. maybe later. or maybe not at all. who knows, anyway…

a week ago I was still in Jakarta, enjoying my last Sunday before I headed back to London. I spent the day with my friends. had an afternoon chit-chat over coffee and then we went to Java Soulnation Festival, a music festival -just like Java Rockin’ Land but this time it’s a soul/Rn’B music. (come to think of it, my days in Jakarta were spent in one concert to another. whoa!). we saw Sophie Ellis Bextor. she was as lovely as she looks and her performance was awesome!

photo by Catharina Putri.

it was definitely worth a 2-day flight delay to see her performed! haha (yes, I was supposed to come back on the 25th but because of this festival, I decided to postpone my flight. yes, that was slightly crazy.)

after Sophie, we saw Public Enemy for a bit. it was full of energy! but then we left to catch the Japanese guitarist duo, Depapepe live in action. well, being a fan of acoustic guitar music, Depapepe simply swept me off my feet. LIKE the performance, although at some points their music brings out the inner melancholic in me. haha, I’m such a sucker for acoustic guitars.

and then seven days just gone by.

here I am sitting on my desk, typing this. procrastinating when I should be reading Subjectivity for my Communications, Psychology and Experience class tomorrow.

oh, welcome back, academic life. you have been missed.

I feel like skipping to the day after the apocalypse.

exams jitters is taking its toll on me I guess. I’ve been revising and all that, it’s just…I don’t think it’s enough to secure me a good grade (how I wish my love for culture is enough to guarantee me with an A). I personally prefer coursework essays or final assignments to exams (both written or oral). hate exams. I hate how students are assessed by several paragraphs written under pressure in two hours. What about the learning experience and effort itself? The sleepless nights, the caffein intake, the “opportunity cost” of not hanging out/resting in, the expectations/pressure put on them? I thought the point of education is supposed to be the knowledge and the process we go through to gain it, but it appears to me that nowadays, you are considered to be “educated” once you have a piece of paper that confirms you “passed” the test (it’s like one of those quizzes on TV where you get the prize for answering correctly). Hhm, or maybe it’s just me ranting.

fashion internships are coming to an end and the pressure to not to slack off during the last two weeks is really high. articles have to be punctual, pictures have to be great, etc. etc. etc.

my last Leopard articles for this year are due in 3 days. in this case, my own expectations are the one that has to be met.

I’m moving out from halls in a two weeks (massive packing alert!). the whole arrangements with the new landlord is quite overwhelming.

mom asked me for the budgeting details for my life next term (tuition, rent, etc etc) so that she can arrange money transfers or whatever financial arrangement that needs to be done. accounting is killing me softly.

I have a gamelan gig in 9 days. lots of new pieces to learn.

I haven’t had a time to pick up my passport from the Austrian visa (summer trip! fun fun fun fun -I guess) and the lady from the embassy keeps calling me to pick it up. she’s driving me crazy.

so many things to do, so little time. in times like this, cloning is a great idea.

(Picture from becauseitslily.tumblr.com)